KawaiiSeme

Who were you with last night?
I was by myself.

What woke you up this morning?
My grandpa telling me he was leaving, and then my dogs wouldn't let me go back to sleep.

Where are you?
At home.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Maybe

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
I hugged a few people.... I kissed my cat.

When's the last time you cried?
Last night.

The PAST;

Ever thrown up in public?
yeah

Passed out because of alcohol?
Not that I know of....

What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
Plans for the weekend.

The FUTURE;

Would you take a bullet for anyone?
Probably. I couldn't tell you who, but probably.

Where would you like to live?
In my own place.

What kind of house would you like?
Enough space for all my shit with a bunch of land so I can have animals and stuff.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Fuck, I don't know.

Where do you see yourself in years?
In years? ..... please rephrase the question.

Who was the last person that left you a comment?


Are you good friends with this person?
I think?

How often do you log in to facebook?
depends on updates on things and how bored I am.


IN GENERAL;

Do you like candy necklaces?:
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

When's the last time you fell or ran into something?
uh.... I think I ran into one of the kitchen chairs like ten minutes ago.

Do you still go trick or treating?
yes

What was the last thing you ate?
I'm eating an apple.

Are you a fast typer?
Yes.

About how many people have you driven with?
uh..... 4? we're gonna go with four.

What are you doing this weekend?
Friday I'm driving to pick up my cousin in california and bring her here. Saturday I'm babysitting and then my boyfriend's coming over and we're going bowling with my uncle, I'm also making my birthday cake. And then Sunday my cousin, my boyfriend, my dog and I are going with my other aunt and uncle up into the mountains to go hiking and swimming and generally just adventuring around. And then monday I'm having a birthday dinner at my house. Busy weekend.

Whats your favorite type of soda?
anything with cherry

Have you ever moved?
yep, more than most people..... in the same state....

Have you ever won an award?
Yes, lots of meaningless ones, but yes.

How many times have you eaten sushi?
so many times I lost count and that makes me so happy. 

What do you want to do right now?
Eat and then motivate myself to write something.

Are you listening to music right now?
yes.

Are you with someone right now?
If you mean in a relationship, then yes. If you mean physically next to a person, no.

Whats a word or phrase that you love?
Um... Nub is my favorite word....

How long until your birthday?
4 days

When were you the saddest in your whole life?
When was graduation? June.... So a little over a month ago.

What time is it now?
7:53 pm

Do you think anyone will repost to this?
nah

What makes you pissed off?
People fucking up my plans with last minute bullshit.

Have you ever had a song written about you?
Not that I'm aware of.

What song makes you cry?
I don't cry at songs.

What songs makes you happy?
Lots of songs, it depends on the day.

What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
Random pandora radio stations

Do you have a job??
not right now

What does Your CD player have in it right now?
Nothing.

If you were a crayon what color would you be?
blue

What makes you happy?
Cooking and hanging around my aunt and uncle's and spending time with my dad and his side of the family.

Height?
5'9"

Hair?
Brown

Piercings?
my ears

Tattoos?
I have a tattoo on the top of my right arm that says "Papa"

What are you wearing?
A tank top and shorts.

What taste is in your mouth?
Apple

Do you have a bad habit?
I have multiple.

   So I've had some thoughts. (*coughcoughobviouslylookatthetitlecough*) I do a lot of reading, and there's nothing but stories in my deviations, but I don't really write a whole lot and it's even rarer that I actually post anything. I'm not exactly sure why I don't, I have a lot of story ideas and I have spare time, but I just never end up writing them down. And if I do write I never post it here. I could say that maybe the cause is I almost never get feedback, but I've always thought that it was better to not get feedback because I don't want my thoughts to be judged when it's just something I'm having fun with and feel like sharing. I mean, I write these journals but I guess my journals just aren't as super personal? Well, I don't put as much thought and effort into them anyways. But anyways, even when I do get feedback and it's good it's weird for me. It's hard for me to grasp that what I do for fun that I think is actually kind of rough and sloppy, someone actually enjoys. I don't really think I'm all that fantastic at writing but then I get people saying they really like it and I just kind of sit there staring at my screen like, "..... What...? ....... Why? Why do you like this garbage that spewed from my brain?" But then I remember "Oh yeah, to some people this isn't garbage that came from a weird mood, this is something they found and thought was different so they told you how they felt about it." And then I sit there and trip myself out for a while because like I said my stories are personal and pretty much my brain everyday on paper (or in this case the internet) so I just can't believe people like the way I think or how I felt when writing the thing. It's all just crazy for me, so if you do in fact enjoy my writing, or talking to me if you're one of those people that I love, thank you. Very much, thank you. Having good vibes and feedback is actually really nice.

50 Secrets About Yourself
Be HONEST no matter what.

1. What is your natural hair color?
Brown

2. Where was your ID pic taken?
The internet? Unless you mean my real ID, that was taken at the DMV.

3. What is your middle name?
Melissa

4. Your current relationship status?
Blood contract.

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
I just said we have a blood contract, jeez.

6. What is your current mood?
Pissed-off-and-trying-to-make-it-better-by-being-sassy

7. What's the color of your underwear?
uhh.... *looks* Green, lime green.

8. What is one thing that makes you happy?
Listening to people geek out about something they love.

9. Who was the last person you cuddled with?
Blood contractee.

10. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
The fact that my mother dragged me through almost nine years of her dating a cunt from hell.

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day?
Wolf, always wolf.

12. Ever had a near death experience?
Um, when I was a baby some bipolar lady that my mom had babysit me almost drowned me. And I almost drowned again when I was four..... And yet I love water and going swimming...

13. Something you do a lot?
Obsess over shit like a maniac and cook.

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
It's OK, I Wouldn't Remember Me Either by Crywank

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?


16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
A stoner chick that I was friends with a couple years ago did.... She was exactly a year older than me.

17. When was the last time you cried?
Earlier today...

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
I had a solo in my middle school choir.

19. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
Mind reading.

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes or waist, depends on what I'm doing when I first see them.

21. What's your biggest secret?
If I told you it wouldn't be a secret..... Plus I can't think of anything off the top of my head.

22. What's your favorite color?
Blue

23. When was the last time you lied?
Earlier today.

24. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
sometimes.

25. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing right now.

26. What's your favorite smell?
Raspberry or cherry. Fruity smells pretty much.

27. If you could describe life in one word what would it be?
I can't pick just one but let's so with Frustrating.

28. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
This morning.

29. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Yep

30. What are you thinking about right now?
My birthday is coming up soon and I don't know what I'm gonna do for it because my family is filled with assholes who can't get over themselves.

31. What should you be doing?
.... Nothing as far as I know... I mean I guess I could be applying for jobs...

32. What was the last thing that made you upset?
Literally everything is making me upset right now, it's the mood I'm in pretty much.

33. Do you like working in the yard?
I do, actually.

34. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Wouldn't change it

35. Name 5 things in your closet:
-clothes
-sleeping bags
-boxes filled with random stuff
-board games
-some toys and dolls from the past

36. Do you act different around your crush?
We have a blood contract. We cool.

37. When was the last time you slept with a stuffed animal?
Haha, everyday, so like last night

38. How many times do you take a shower a week?
NEVER. Just kidding I shower everyday unless I'm too busy, then I just shower the next morning.

39. Do you brush your teeth everyday?
Yeah.

40. Have you ever said something stupid in front of your crush?
I've said something stupid to literally every single person I've met.

41. Have you ever watched a hockey game?
I have on TV...

42. Do you lie about your age?
No, but everyone thinks I do. They always think I'm a lot older.

43. Ever been jealous about something stupid?
Yessssssssssssssssssss

44. Do you pick your nose?
Nope, I mean unless it's really clogged up and I have to put a tissue over my finger and clear it out, or I'll clean it in the shower, but I don't know like pick it in public and wipe it on something or some shit.

45. One food you hate?
There's quite a few foods I don't like... ground meat makes me gag...

46. What's the one junk food you can't live without?
Ice cream?

47. How old were you when you found out that Santa was fake?
I...... Don't remember.....

48. Have you ever blown your nose and looked inside the napkin?
Yeah to make sure I'm not all diseased and disgusting.

49. Describe your favorite underwear you have.
They're like a teal blue color... That's all I got.

50. Did you lie in any of these questions?
Not as far as I'm aware.

I live at my grandparents' house and we just had a thunderstorm and my entire yard flooded. The drainage ditch in front of our house got clogged so it spilled over into our yard. It was all rain and hail and just water everywhere. It was a good foot or two of water as well because it came up to the first step of my front porch. So for about an hour my desert dirt patch of a yard became a river... That I got to tread through to feed my dogs. Super fun.

I haven't posted anything on here in months dear jesus. Anyways, update for people who decide they would like to read. I'm trying to get college sorted out which is being a lot more difficult than is strictly necessary to be honest... I have to hurry up and gather up some money so I can start doing things like take the driver's ed class for my liscense (bullshit), pay for my college application, and stuff like that. Besides that I'm on a short time span to find a job now because my grandma just got admitted to the hospital thursday. They haven't told us anything specific but basically something's up with her brain and it affects her speech, memory, and motor skills. So that's been going on with my family and I've been trying to deal with everybody's feelings and get my shit together since I still don't know how to feel about it... But yeah other than that I've just been trying really hard to find a job, I haven't even been able to get so much as an interview so far but I have to find something and fast.

On a positive note, earl grey tea and chocolate ice cream go amazingly well together.